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Mental Disorders and Disabilities

Bipolar II Disorder – I was diagnosed with this life-changing disorder in the summer of 2019, but I’ve been battling it since at least a year prior to that. My manic and depressive episodes make it hard to function, but I’ve somehow gotten by. I’m now on bipolar medication to help regulate my mood, and I feel much more stable now.

Anorexia Nervosa, Purging Subtype – I’ve been struggling with this debilitating disorder since the summer of 2018. I’ve done PHP and IOP programs for treatment for this disorder. I’m pro-recovery and anti-diet culture. Today, I’m fully weight restored! I still make mistakes every now and then, but I’m growing stronger every day.

Autism Spectrum Disorder – I’ve always known I was a little different from my peers, and when I got this diagnosis, everything made sense. This particular disorder makes it a little difficult for me to comprehend facial expressions and social cues like a neurotypical person would, but I still manage to maintain a close group of friends. I’m also incredibly sensitive to loud noises, bright lights, certain textures, and large crowds. Luckily, I have a weighted blanket, a weighted stuffed animal, and plenty of fidget toys to help keep me calm.

Depression and Anxiety – I’ve struggled with depression since I was 14 and anxiety since I was 16. They’re both incredibly difficult to battle. I recently did inpatient at a psychiatric ward for my depression, and I’m currently in a partial hospitalization program for it as well. As hard as it is to keep going sometimes, I’ve managed to get this far, and I’m not going to give up now. Nothing is ever worth hurting yourself over.

If you’re in a crisis where you feel you might harm yourself or others, please call 911. You’ll be glad you did one day.

Outside of Mental Health

I’m a 19 year old female college student. I love music, theatre, and crafts. I also recently discovered that I love writing, thus here I am. I love travelling and learning new languages as well. Additionally, I plan on one day adopting reptiles, amphibians, and invertebrates as pets. My favorite snakes are Kenyan Sand Boas, and I dream of having one someday.

Kenyan Sand Boa

Why I Decided to Start This Blog

Well, the answer to that is simple really. I wanted to help other people that struggled with the same types of things that I did. I’ve been through enough therapy that I’ve learned the tricks of the trade, and I’d love the opportunity to share that useful information with others.

The other reason I decided to start this blog was to have a creative outlet. I’m a creative person, and I always need a place to express myself. What better way to do that than to write a blog?

Anyways, I hope someone out there finds this blog useful and helpful to them. Hopefully, I can shine a light in this world to bring some positivity to people who really need it.

Thank you for deciding to visit my blog! Leave a comment down below of what topics you’re looking forward to seeing me cover on this blog. Bye for now!

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Breakfasts for Eating Disorder Recovery: No Cooking Required

I’m currently recovering from anorexia, and I’m on a meal plan based on macro-nutrients. I know how difficult it can be to stay on meal plan sometimes, so I decided to share some simple ideas I have for breakfasts that meet meal plan and require zero cooking.

What is Meal Plan?

Before we dive in to all the options for meals, I wanted to quickly reveal what exactly a meal plan looks like. It usually consists of one of each of these macro-nutrients for breakfast:

  • Grain
  • Protein
  • Fat
  • Milk
  • Fruit

Also, some basic rules for being on meal plan are no counting calories, no measuring out your food, eat everything on your plate, drink water with each meal, and especially no purging.

Raisin Bran with Blueberries and Almonds

Ingredients:

  • A bowl full of Raisin Bran
  • Milk or soy milk
  • A handful of blueberries
  • A handful of almonds, preferably unsalted

For this meal, simply add the cereal (you can swap Raisin Bran for a different cereal if you wish) to a bowl. For example, a great substitute could be Cheerios and strawberries with almonds and milk. Just add the milk, fruit, and almonds to the bowl, and it’s ready to eat! Super simple and nutritious!

Peanut Butter and Banana Toast

Ingredients:

  • 1/2 banana
  • Peanut butter (2x normal amount most people spread on toast)
  • 1 slice of toast
  • 1 glass of milk or soy milk or chocolate milk

This breakfast is my favorite! If you want, you can sprinkle cinnamon on top or even swap peanut butter for nutella. Just be sure that you spread 2 times the normal amount of peanut butter for it to count as your protein and your fat.

Parfait

Ingredients:

  • A bowl full of yogurt (or soy yogurt)
  • A handful of your favorite fruit
  • A handful of your favorite granola

This meal is simple and delicious! I love to use blueberries and strawberries as my fruits. I also love the peanut butter flavored granola from KIND. All in all, I’d give this meal a 10/10.

Those are all the ideas I have for simple meals that meet meal plan and require no cooking. Thanks for joining me on this journey, and good luck in your recovery!

If you are in a crisis, please call for help. The national eating disorder hotline is  1-800-931-2237.

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Coping Skills for Purging Urges

The 15 Minute Rule

The 15 minute rule is one of my favorite coping skills for purging urges.

Basically, this coping skill requires you to set a timer for 15 and not purge for those 15 minutes. When the timer is up, if you’re still having urges, set the timer for another 15 minutes. Keep setting timers until the urges eventually subside.

Accountability

Spend time with friends while you’re eating and one hour afterwards. During this time, ask your friends to not let you go to the bathroom. This will keep you accountable and prevent you from purging.

Keep a Counter Going

Download a day counting app to your phone. DayCount is the one I use (no, they’re not paying me to say that). Log the last time you purged. This way you’ll be able to keep up with your no purging streaks, and it will motivate you to not break those streaks.

Eat Foods That are Hard to Purge

Try to eat foods that are more difficult to throw up to discourage you from purging. Some of these foods include bread and spicy foods.

Use a Peppermint After Eating

The nausea and feeling of fullness after eating usually leads to purging, so why not stop that feeling from occurring? Eating a peppermint after a meal can help to settle your stomach to decrease the feeling of urgency to purge.

Please try to refrain from purging because it is very damaging to your health. If you have any other suggestions for coping skills, feel free to leave them in the comments below!

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5 Ways to Cope With Depression

1. Challenge Thought Distortions

Have you ever thought you were worthless? Useless? Helpless? A waste of time and space?

These are examples of thought distortions or automatic negative thoughts.

Luckily, these can be challenged through something called cognitive behavioral therapy, or CBT.

What CBT teaches us to do is to take our automatic negative thoughts and turn them into positive or realistic statements. For example:

  • I am worthless -> I have just as much worth as every other human on this planet.
  • Nobody loves me -> I have a loving, supportive family and a good network of friends.
  • I am a bad person -> I do the best I can to be a good person, and that is enough.

2. Positive Affirmations

A positive affirmation is something positive you can say to yourself to motivate you to keep going.

Positive affirmations can be written on index cards and taken with you everywhere or posted in places that you feel especially self-critical, such as by the mirror.

Some examples of positive affirmations are:

  • I am so strong
  • I am a beautiful person
  • I deserve love and happiness

3. Self Care

Any activity that is self-soothing can be counted as self care; this can be anything from coloring to taking a bath.

Some common self care activities are:

  • Baths, especially with bath bombs or essential oils
  • Coloring, painting, drawing
  • Applying lotion
  • Grooming yourself
  • Taking time to relax
  • Painting your nails

These are just a few examples, but there are many, many ways to go about administering self-care. Whatever works for you is the right choice!

4. Distraction

Personally, this is one of my favorite coping skills.

Distraction is using any other positive, non-self-destructive activity to help you forget about your depression for a while.

Almost anything can be a distraction, from watching TV to talking with a friend to a new creative project.

Whatever the distraction is, make sure it doesn’t become maladaptive, addicting, or unhealthy. These types of behaviors will only worsen your condition later on because you won’t learn effective and healthy coping skills.

5. Don’t Isolate

The worst thing you could do to worsen your depression is isolate.

And trust me, I’m the one to talk when it comes to this subject (as I’m currently alone in my room).

But in all seriousness, go outside! Meet up with a friend, or call them if you can’t meet in person. Just for heaven’s sake, don’t allow yourself to be alone. There is always someone there to help you, just reach out.

Socializing not only provides a good distraction, but it also prevents you from feeling lonely and letting that feed your depression.

Reaching Out

If you need help, please reach out to someone! You will be thankful you did in the future, trust me.

If you’re in a crisis (in danger of hurting yourself or others), call 911 or 1-888-628-9454 immediately.

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How to Help Someone with an Eating Disorder

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Eating disorders are heartbreaking diseases, and it can be especially difficult to watch a loved one go through that and not know how to help. Luckily, I’ve compiled a list of what is and is not helpful for someone with an eating disorder to minimize your confusion.

Don’t mention how they look

No matter what you do, don’t mention how your loved one with an eating disorder looks, especially their weight. Even comments that you perceive as helpful, such as “You are so skinny” and “You look so healthy,” can be warped inside that person’s mind and encourage the eating disorder. It’s best not to mention at all how the person looks to avoid this.

Don’t mention numbers

People with eating disorders often have triggers. Triggers are things people do or say that can cause anxiety and/or mental distress to that particular person. Everyone has different triggers, but the…

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How to Help Someone With High-Functioning Autism

1. Have Earplugs Handy

It’s very easy for high-functioning autistic people to get overwhelmed by loud noises, so having ear plugs with you or even staying with the person if they choose to leave the loud, stressful place can be helpful.

2. Clarify Yourself

Sometimes it can be difficult for someone with autism to identify when people are using sarcasm or not meaning something literally, so it’s helpful to explain when you mean something that’s different than what you’re saying. Just make sure you do this in a way that isn’t condescending as to avoid offending the person.

3. Care About Their Special Interests

People with autism often have topics by which they are fascinated. Pay attention when they talk about these, and show them that you also find these topics interesting. This could be a great way to get an autistic loved one to open up to you!

4. Help During Meltdowns

Some autistic people will have meltdowns, and it can be disturbing to watch your loved one go through something that traumatic. Whatever the case may be, I promise your loved one will make it through the meltdown and learn to cope. In the meantime, here’s what you can do to help:

  • Ask if they want to be touched
  • Bring them water and snacks
  • Deter others away from them
  • Help make the environment soothing
  • Give them earplugs, a weighted blanket, or some item that helps with sensory issues
  • Help them breathe slowly and fully

5. Ask Before Touching

Since many autistic people have sensory issues, it’s a good idea to ask before touching them. If they say no, please don’t be offended! It has nothing to do with you and everything to do with that person’s sensory issues at that moment.

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How to Recognize a Manic Episode

Sometimes it can be difficult to recognize when you’re in a manic episode in the moment – especially because mania feels great. Not all of these symptoms apply to everyone, but they’re definitely some common signs. This post is intended to help others and myself recognize the warning signs that a manic episode may be on the horizon.

1. You get little to no sleep

Manic episodes thrive on us getting little sleep – to control the mania, try to get as much sleep as you can.

2. You become very impulsive

Shopping sprees, hypersexuality, etc. can be a sign of mania. Try to keep yourself accountable during these episodes by asking friends and family members to help you control your impulsive urges.

3. You become very productive

In fact, you become a little too productive. Staying up until 2 A.M. finishing a project that it would normally take you a week to finish that you’ve done in a day is definitely a sign that you’re manic.

4. You become easily agitated

20 Coping Skills (Distraction)

  1. Take a walk
  2. Do yoga
  3. Stretch
  4. Dance like nobody’s watching
  5. Sing
  6. Memorize something
  7. Write a poem or a story
  8. Draw
  9. Color
  10. Make slime
  11. Watch TV
  12. Watch YouTube
  13. Play an instrument
  14. Play a sport
  15. Make a list of things you’re grateful for
  16. Write a love letter to yourself
  17. Write a letter to someone you’ll never send
  18. Play a video game
  19. Read a good book
  20. Play with a pet

Welcome

Thanks for joining me on the crazy ride that is my life! I am a person struggling with Bipolar II Disorder, Autism Spectrum Disorder, and an eating disorder. This blog will consist of posts about my personal struggles as well as coping skills that I’ve found useful. Hopefully this blog will make others with these disorders feel a little less alone. No matter what you’re struggling with, someone else understands your pain, so don’t be afraid to reach out for help. I promise that getting help is worth it.

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If you’re in a crisis, please call 911 or a national hotline.

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